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Job 1:5

Saturday, April 26, 2008 in God, mental, mom, phoebe, romance, stafford, verse, women, work | Tags: , , , , , | | 1 comment

At Discovery Green, David came up behind me and asked, “Do you want children, Amy?”  I found that to be out of the blue but answered honestly: “Not really.  Why do you ask?”  When I answer that, I am always a bit hesitant because I feel that whoever around me and hears will look down on me in a little.  It seems almost all “good” people would want a child of their own, and especially if I want to get married.  In other words, I feel like the guy I want to catch will probably want a kid–and that’s a big thing for me to not want one.  And in a sense I feel I have the obligation, when I marry, because (1) I don’t know if we’re always going to be having protection while having sex, (2) if I have the ability and there are other women who struggle so hard to have one naturally instead of adopting, and (3) I am blessed with a husband and the ability to birthe (which I don’t know yet obviously but nothing is making me doubt it) then aren’t I also called to produce holy (as holy as it can be, being still on Earth) seed?  Eh, not to worry for too long at this point in time for me.

I have always wanted to be happily married (whatever that means).  But, I don’t want my kids to inherit this mental illness streak, especially a worse one.  And to have children (because I’d like to have two for them to play with each other and relate to us parents haha, but two only) means when they’re conceived, you’re going to have them for the rest of your adult life.  Yes, they’ll grow up and move out, but you’re always going to see them as yours and your responsibility, plus they’re going to want to (hopefully) keep in contact with you and all.  They say you don’t have to be perfect to accept Jesus’s gift of saving you (true), and you don’t have to be perfect to marry someone (true again), and you also don’t have to be perfect to have kids (true), but the latter one seems to be the hardest for me to grasp.  Every single movement and word and facial expression and gesture will be picked up by your child–talk about accountability!  Yesh, they will see, but I’m afraid they will learn!  At the same time that I am learning how to be a mother, as well as probably holding down a job, and still learning about being a woman.  People say they pray for their future spouse every day.  I say, fabulous, lovely, continue to do so.  But also, get down on those knees and pray for your future children!

I remember at the first Global Cafe, while AliceSun was on my left and Phoebe was on my right, we were talking about relationships.  AliceSun happened to have a really cool guy with her, and she says it’s almost too good to be true for her because usually the guys she falls for have a lot of problems.  Phoebe shared that, since Linton will propose to her within a year, she really had never thought of joining her life with another.  That, unlike Grace, she had never dreamed of getting married (like those other girls who practically have their entire wedding planned out, or I guess even like me, knowing I’d like to be married but the details are unclear).  Always wanted to be hitched, never wanted to have the little ones.  Only time will tell.

When a period of feasting had run its course, Job would send and have them purified. Early in the morning he would sacrifice a burnt offering for each of them, thinking, “Perhaps my children have sinned and cursed God in their hearts.” This was Job’s regular custom.

Inversion

Saturday, April 26, 2008 in hannah, phoebe, romance, travel | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | | 2 comments

Initially the tentative plan was to go to the iFest: Out of Africa, then see the Lucy exhibit at the HMNS, then go to Hermann Park, then eat dinner at Star Pizza (because David’s in town).  Well, since Lucy was extended, and no one really said anything about wanting to go to iFest (it was reported to not be that spectacular, so didn’t want to spend the money), we ended up checking out the new Discovery Green Park downtown right outside the George R. Brown Convention Center.  Phoebe, Hannah, David and I met at Linton’s house, where we carpooled from.  We got some ice cream from the ice cream truck.  Jacky and Chris came later.  We strolled through the park: chatting, looking around, casually throwing a football, taking pictures, checking out the colorful parking garage, and finally stopping at the Listening Vessels.  Using the structure, David and I sort of caught up, but of course his unique comments always make me laugh (I don’t remember what we talked about).  Chris was quite surprised that it worked, but Jacky didn’t seem to hear anything LOL.

Next stop: the famous Star Pizza.  On the way there, we passed the Urban League!  So that’s where it is.  In the car, they were talking about their favorite instruments.  The cello is apparently on the top three (besides the piano and drums, for David).  Laurie joined us at the restaurant.  The Boston/Atlanta game on TV was right in front of us.  They ordered a (large?) Margherita - Chicago style on wheat, Chicken Alfredo - New York style on wheat, and Starburst - New York style on white.  David took a slice back, for Elliot.  We played musical chairs (or rather, we took turns going to the restroom and people switched seats to talk with others).

Then we headed toward the “Austin part of Houston” because of its “eclectic feel”–Montrose.  We got slightly lost because there were two “Hollywood Food and Cigars” and a “Hollywood Vietnamese Restaurant” near where Inversion Coffee was.   Laurie drove Hannah and me; she has a new two-door car that looked pretty different from what I’ve seen.  The mileage meter is absolutely huge, and then it has a lot of other technological gadgets, such as saying how much gas efficiency it currently has.  Laurie says another reason she bought this was that the re-sell value was quite high as well.  Unfortunately, not knowing a lick about cars, I can’t tell you/don’t remember what car she had.  Inside, they offered a lot of brochures and such to pick up, so I found out about some free film classes - that had already passed.  Oh well, I’ll still pass them along, Elliot might want to check up on them regularly to see if there are any in the future.  The place also had art from the Children’s Prison Arts Project (CPAP). 

Most got coffee; Linton got chocolate milk, which he gave to rest to me.  There wasn’t enough room so the guys sat on the curvy couch while the rest of us and David sat on the chairs along the wall leading to the restrooms (which had some plumbing problems - the girl behind the counter who just started a couple of weeks ago helped me out with a plunger, saying “This is not in my job description” haha).  Linton asked David to play chess, then Hannah, Phoebe, Chris, and I played Chinese Checkers - the Cantonese way (you can jump equal spaces before and after another piece).  Hannah won, Chris got second place (wow!), Phoebe got third, and of course I got dead last (I still had like five moves left after Phoebe finished).  Phoebe and I played Mancala afterwards (after I used Chris’s phone to look up the rules).  I was on the fringe and couldn’t hear everything before we started the board games, but I do recall two stories.  Linton asked about embarrassing moments:

  • David shared about being in a car with a girl, and during a turn or rough patch the girl placed her hand on his leg briefly then said “Sorry.”  He replied something to the extent of, “That’s okay, you can leave it there as long as you want.”  She paused and then turned and looked straight at him.  Awkward silence on the rest of the journey…..Linton asked David if he was aroused.  The rest of us were like, “Linton!” haha like his dad.  David answered no.
  • Linton egged Chris on to share his story where he ended up “stroking” a girl.  “What?!” exclaimed Chris, “that’s totally not what happened.”  In elementary or middle school, he was at his desk behind a girl.  He was just shaking his leg as some of us do at times, but then he realized he was shaking his leg against the girl’s leg.  Oops.  He stopped and apologized.  The end.
  • They asked me for one, but I couldn’t think of one at the top of my head.  “Preferably one involving hormones.”  Hm….

Calendar of events

Saturday, April 26, 2008 in holiday, news | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | | 1 comment

Yesterday was my last day of work!  For now, anyway, haha.  Now I need to start studying for my NBCOTE.  In the meantime, I can now participate in some Houston events:

Plus, I can finally cut my hair!  I think this is the longest I’ve ever had my hair in my entire life (and I don’t like it, especially for my sleep).  Unintentionally, it seems each time I donate to Locks of Love, I’ve grown it out longer and longer.  Now I’ve reached their ideal (first time was for babies, and I’m guestimating my second time was their minimum of 10 inches and my third time 11 inches): now it’s longer than a foot:  http://prayriefayrie.files.wordpress.com/2008/04/04-26-08-2.jpg (for some reason I’ve tried inserting the image multiple times, over a few days, and even tried a new entry, but all failed.  I guess too long and ugly to display ;-P).

Some more Houston events:

  • What’s Up, Houston? published by Brandonwood Press, L.L.C. on 2726 Bissonnet Street #240-153 / Houston, TX 77005-1352.  Email: whatsup@whatsuphoustonmag.com
  • 101houston.com